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Are people on Methadone “clean”?

I’ve encountered this debate several times while attending meetings and support groups and I have to say, it kind of irritates me.  I’ve watched entire one hour meetings get totally wasted by the back and forth arguing that this topic … Continue reading

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life after rebirth

rebirth is a hard concept to digest and assimilate.  I thought that I had experienced it once; years ago… but in the long scheme of my life it was but an awakening in the middle of a nightmare…. only to … Continue reading

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Holy shit… it’s been a while

I regret that I stopped posting blogs and searching my soul for words to inspire and help others.  I had a really good run with sobriety… but, unfortunately I did relapse and after all those words I posted I fell … Continue reading

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One day at a time…

The “One day at a time”(o.d.a.a.t) approach to dealing with any kind of addiction is great.  It kind of helps you to remember, “Hey, this is life.  It sucks sometimes but, I can get through this”.  But, I’d like to … Continue reading

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I was going to call this blog “Ten things I Hate About Heroin” but…

I was going to call this blog “Ten Things I Hate About Heroin”. But I think that hate might be too strong of a word for my relationship with heroin. Although I have been clean for quite some time now, … Continue reading

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The Importance of Sticking to Your Suboxone Regiment

It is very important that while in Suboxone treatment you refrain from abusing your medication. The meaning of “abusing your medication” should be self-explanatory; however, there are even some small examples of abuse that are often overlooked. Obviously, you should … Continue reading

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Love, Death, and Rebirth (Part III of III)

Eventually the paramedics deemed me well enough to walk out to the ambulance. They did not feel it was necessary to allow me to put on a shirt and a belt, so while walking out it was imperative that a … Continue reading

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Love, Death, and Rebirth (Part II of III)

Black Then… Eternal darkness Then… Black, empty consciousness Then… Warmth? Then… Recognition of self. Then… A presence Behind me Then… Development of sense of self Then… Red, red, red, RED, RED, RED, RED!!!! I explode from the womb of rebirth … Continue reading

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Love, Death, and Rebirth (Part I of III)

I awoke on Monday morning, June 19, 2006, exactly a month after my 21st birthday, in a particularly jubilant mood because the first sight for my weary eyes was the sleeping beauty that was my girlfriend at the time. Nothing … Continue reading

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