Comments for Diary of a Heroin Addict http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2 Stories from a recovering heroin addict. Sat, 06 Mar 2010 12:12:57 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0 Comment on Love, Death, and Rebirth (Part I of III) by joey spencer http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/love-death-and-rebirth-part-i-of-iii/comment-page-1/#comment-30 joey spencer Sat, 06 Mar 2010 12:12:57 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=3#comment-30 this is the third time i've tryed to comment on here and the last, i guess what i have to say just aint that important. i spent 20 minutes writing an my shit just disappears. why is it that addicts (who should stick together alway pull dumb stuff like censoring comments, cuz my guess you have aprove them befor they get posted. sweet, this is the third time i’ve tryed to comment on here and the last, i guess what i have to say just aint that important. i spent 20 minutes writing an my shit just disappears. why is it that addicts (who should stick together alway pull dumb stuff like censoring comments, cuz my guess you have aprove them befor they get posted. sweet,

]]> Comment on One day at a time… by joey spencer http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/one-day-at-a-time/comment-page-1/#comment-29 joey spencer Sat, 06 Mar 2010 12:08:36 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=8#comment-29 yo man i just spent an 20 minutes writing on here and when i submitted it, it just disappeared. nice dude. i guess what i have to say isnt as important as you. peace dude yo man i just spent an 20 minutes writing on here and when i submitted it, it just disappeared. nice dude. i guess what i have to say isnt as important as you. peace dude

]]> Comment on One day at a time… by joey spencer http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/one-day-at-a-time/comment-page-1/#comment-28 joey spencer Sat, 06 Mar 2010 12:04:40 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=8#comment-28 i think it sounds like the way you describe dealing with a craving, that it's kind of like AVRT. (Addictive voice recognition training) Recognizing that your addiction does not have to be you, and you don't have to be it. I think to many addicts consider their addiction to be all that they are. Like they have no other part of them except that. What i found after 20+ years of fighting with that part of myself is that, i'm not just a junkie, im a father, brother, son, friend and a shit load of other things. I also found that no-one can help me but me. I can get support, encouragement, and an ear to listen to me. But i'm the only one inside myself and the only one who can change what i don't like about myself. What *I* don't don't like, not what some old guy sitting in some meeting every night spouting contradictions at younger people about " "relapse is a part of recovery" or "You have a disease that you have no power over" really? or the best load of crap they tell you, "you have to have a higher power or you will never stay clean" Relapse is a part of using. period. and i am not diseased, i have a disorder, and i will beat it by treating that disorder as such. and let me ask those who think they have to have a higher power to stay clean a question, have you ever prayed to god to take away your compulsion to use? How's that working out for ya? this has nothing to do with god, or your relationship with, It is about you and your relationship with yourself. If you think this makes sense and want to have more conversations on it then please listen and call in to my radio show or stop by my blog too. Brandon, thank you for letting me comment. i think it sounds like the way you describe dealing with a craving, that it’s kind of like AVRT. (Addictive voice recognition training) Recognizing that your addiction does not have to be you, and you don’t have to be it. I think to many addicts consider their addiction to be all that they are. Like they have no other part of them except that. What i found after 20+ years of fighting with that part of myself is that, i’m not just a junkie, im a father, brother, son, friend and a shit load of other things. I also found that no-one can help me but me. I can get support, encouragement, and an ear to listen to me. But i’m the only one inside myself and the only one who can change what i don’t like about myself. What *I* don’t don’t like, not what some old guy sitting in some meeting every night spouting contradictions at younger people about ” “relapse is a part of recovery” or “You have a disease that you have no power over” really? or the best load of crap they tell you, “you have to have a higher power or you will never stay clean” Relapse is a part of using. period. and i am not diseased, i have a disorder, and i will beat it by treating that disorder as such. and let me ask those who think they have to have a higher power to stay clean a question, have you ever prayed to god to take away your compulsion to use? How’s that working out for ya? this has nothing to do with god, or your relationship with, It is about you and your relationship with yourself. If you think this makes sense and want to have more conversations on it then please listen and call in to my radio show or stop by my blog too. Brandon, thank you for letting me comment.

]]> Comment on I was going to call this blog “Ten things I Hate About Heroin” but… by luvley2 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/i-was-going-to-call-this-blog-ten-things-i-hate-about-heroin-but/comment-page-1/#comment-27 luvley2 Mon, 22 Feb 2010 22:51:54 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=7#comment-27 hi this is my first day not taking heroin, your blog is really helping me thank u hi this is my first day not taking heroin, your blog is really helping me thank u

]]> Comment on Love, Death, and Rebirth (Part III of III) by skaterbomber http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/love-death-and-rebirth-part-iii-of-iii/comment-page-1/#comment-26 skaterbomber Mon, 22 Feb 2010 06:03:46 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=5#comment-26 so was that the last day you ever touched heroin? so was that the last day you ever touched heroin?

]]> Comment on One day at a time… by redwine111 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/one-day-at-a-time/comment-page-1/#comment-25 redwine111 Tue, 19 Jan 2010 08:18:09 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=8#comment-25 I need to stop using heroin. keep writing. I need to stop using heroin. keep writing.

]]> Comment on I was going to call this blog “Ten things I Hate About Heroin” but… by colorform http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/i-was-going-to-call-this-blog-ten-things-i-hate-about-heroin-but/comment-page-1/#comment-24 colorform Tue, 19 May 2009 04:35:58 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=7#comment-24 11. I will get a whole bunch of "First time I... (e.g. went to movies with girl, went to coffee shop to read paper, went to current job) without shit" experiences! These experiences are magical and add so much value to my recovery. 11. I will get a whole bunch of “First time I… (e.g. went to movies with girl, went to coffee shop to read paper, went to current job) without shit” experiences! These experiences are magical and add so much value to my recovery.

]]> Comment on I was going to call this blog “Ten things I Hate About Heroin” but… by charles_sills http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/i-was-going-to-call-this-blog-ten-things-i-hate-about-heroin-but/comment-page-1/#comment-23 charles_sills Tue, 03 Feb 2009 20:14:14 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=7#comment-23 hi. i was really moved by this, and am also a recovering addict. in one of my classes at my university i need to interpret a prose piece. this would require me to eventually read it to the class like a monologue, i will basically be reading it as you, if that makes sense. almost like acting. i wanted to get your permission to use it, and was wondering if i could have your name (or maybe even a good pen name) because i will need one in order to use this. you can contact me at charles_sills@yahoo.com thanks for your time, and thank you even more for your words. hi. i was really moved by this, and am also a recovering addict. in one of my classes at my university i need to interpret a prose piece. this would require me to eventually read it to the class like a monologue, i will basically be reading it as you, if that makes sense. almost like acting. i wanted to get your permission to use it, and was wondering if i could have your name (or maybe even a good pen name) because i will need one in order to use this. you can contact me at charles_sills@yahoo.com

thanks for your time, and thank you even more for your words.

]]> Comment on One day at a time… by singlmom http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/one-day-at-a-time/comment-page-1/#comment-21 singlmom Sat, 06 Sep 2008 22:20:49 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=8#comment-21 I'm new here and probably won't be as poetic as everyone else. But here it goes. It's Saturday morning and I've been awake since 5 in the morning. Probably because yesterday I made the decision to take back control of my life...I set up an appt. With a suboxone clinic, and I'm not sure if it's because every month at this time I'm out of pills or I really am tired of being a slave to something made in a lab somewhere. Right now I'm still using but they tell me as of Wednesday I have to stop. I have to be in withdrawals. I do this a lot and I am scared every time. It's horrible. I'm still adjusting to being a single mom and my kids are young,6 and 3, taking care of them during withdrawal is the most difficult thing I have ever had to do. So as I am filled with anxiety as I face my punishment for submitting myself to the new man in my life Mr. Percocet, I think of all of the things I need to do before Wednesday, laundry, cleaning etc. So I'm not depriving my kids of anything. But I'm scared to do death, many things run through my mind, am I gonna survive the withdrawals, is this medicine gonna work and how am I gonna make it through life without my emotion numbing friend? I have gotten to the point where I don't know how or even want to talk to anybody without being high. My dearest friend makes me the nicest person in the world, full of smiles and laughter. Now that its time for my friend to go, I have to face the world all by myself. How? Do I really have to face my pain knowing I have a friend in the world that can make it all go away? And will people still like me without it? The fear is consuming me. Why can't I have been an addict with something else? Like cleaning? I have watched my friend destroy my life and not even care. I guess I really love my friend. Again, I'm scared to death and if anyone has a word of hope I'd love to hear it? Has anyone had a seizure from percocet withdrawal? Please respond ASAP! I’m new here and probably won’t be as poetic as everyone else. But here it goes. It’s Saturday morning and I’ve been awake since 5 in the morning. Probably because yesterday I made the decision to take back control of my life…I set up an appt. With a suboxone clinic, and I’m not sure if it’s because every month at this time I’m out of pills or I really am tired of being a slave to something made in a lab somewhere. Right now I’m still using but they tell me as of Wednesday I have to stop. I have to be in withdrawals. I do this a lot and I am scared every time. It’s horrible. I’m still adjusting to being a single mom and my kids are young,6 and 3, taking care of them during withdrawal is the most difficult thing I have ever had to do. So as I am filled with anxiety as I face my punishment for submitting myself to the new man in my life Mr. Percocet, I think of all of the things I need to do before Wednesday, laundry, cleaning etc. So I’m not depriving my kids of anything. But I’m scared to do death, many things run through my mind, am I gonna survive the withdrawals, is this medicine gonna work and how am I gonna make it through life without my emotion numbing friend? I have gotten to the point where I don’t know how or even want to talk to anybody without being high. My dearest friend makes me the nicest person in the world, full of smiles and laughter. Now that its time for my friend to go, I have to face the world all by myself. How? Do I really have to face my pain knowing I have a friend in the world that can make it all go away? And will people still like me without it? The fear is consuming me. Why can’t I have been an addict with something else? Like cleaning? I have watched my friend destroy my life and not even care. I guess I really love my friend. Again, I’m scared to death and if anyone has a word of hope I’d love to hear it? Has anyone had a seizure from percocet withdrawal? Please respond ASAP!

]]> Comment on I was going to call this blog “Ten things I Hate About Heroin” but… by Raj http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/i-was-going-to-call-this-blog-ten-things-i-hate-about-heroin-but/comment-page-1/#comment-18 Raj Wed, 14 May 2008 21:19:42 +0000 http://www.thatspoppycock.com/wordpress2/?p=7#comment-18 not only do you have financial freedom after quitting but you are also set freen in so many other ways, you can then be free to become all that you can and lead a meaningful life! Think about the dreams, aspirations you had before becoming ajunkie not only do you have financial freedom after quitting but you are also set freen in so many other ways, you can then be free to become all that you can and lead a meaningful life!

Think about the dreams, aspirations you had before becoming ajunkie

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